Time for Jared

Grand Aurora jutterflies,

It has definitely been a while since I last uploaded a blog entry for you guys; school, work, and life all around have just been a little heavy and all over the place. But it is really time to get back in tune with my Higher Self, HP, and my spirituality. I have been getting messages to do meditations and mindfulness, and I only listened to them today. Seriously, for at least the past week or so, I have been getting signs to meditate, and I finally did it. And let me tell you, Iye am more than happy. It was a perfect five-minute mediation that I did before I got ready to get dressed and leave the house for work this afternoon. I am actually sitting in the break room right now at work, typing out the start of this post. Out of all the six or seven emotions, I feel contempt and happy, I am not complaining; however, I know that there is so much more out there waiting for me to tap into and gain knowledge about.

The meditation really hit did different. I almost forgot I was even in my bedroom, sitting on the floor, before the video told me to open my eyes. Before I could actually open my eyes to come to and carefully examine the room, I just felt an overwhelming amount of sadness. Sadness for allowing myself not to tap into my energy, check on myself, and keeping myself away from meditation for such a long period of time. And I rightfully deserve to feel and experience this emotion; "we are only human" (I just heard the break room) ** talk about Divine Timing. It is true, we are to connect with ourselves in our human aspect just as much as our soul/spirit aspect. I have gone so long without uploading a check in, but it is time to fix that and roll into the greatness of my being.

I am going to have to work harder on adding in meditation to my routine, just as you would add: brushing your teeth with a different/additional toothpaste, cleaning a piercing, anything into your daily hygienic routine. Now it is time for me to clock in, I will edit and add more information later. Talk to you later ** 14:58

22:43 ** Hello and Abundant Night jutterflies,

I am home from work and sitting in the kitchen, listening to 412 Hz Healing Music. I am connected from my MacBook to the wireless earbuds that my father got for me last Christmas. So dad, if you are reading this, thank you very much, they work amazingly. (Minus them randomly dropping out, ): It still sounds amazing though. Honestly, apart from the headphones, I need to go back to sleeping with this playing in the background. Today, was a pretty decent day all around, I had my National Government class, walked to Dunkin' Donuts from campus with two of my classmates (got a free donut, so that was low-key cool). Got home and watched See (barely watched the show though, paused it and watched a message and boom, meditation was the answer. Drove to work after that, and there I am pretty sure you can imagine the beginning of this entry.

I cannot believe that I have not posted an entry since the 5th of October. Honestly, I have been waiting to save an entry for my interviews with the Tropical Moon Signs of the Zodiacs, but I am missing one of each modality to begin the process. Work was pretty good, I was actually texting one of my co-workers before I started on this entry, because she was interested in getting in tune with her spirituality. I know the last time I spoke to her about it, I told her to do research, and now I am telling her to possibly get into shadow work. Definitely helped me and I will be doing some after I upload this entry, shower and rid myself of all the energies that I have been exposed to all day.

Throughout this week and the past week, I have been noticing that I do need to pay more attention to my intuition and give myself time. Hence, the title, it is time for Jared. It ultimately is, and I am more than ready for it. My time, all the way. The life Iye desire is literally in my hands, and only Iye can give it to myself. Almost forgot to mention, I dropped off my Beats to get fixed at Best Buy, thank you, AppleCare+.

If you noticed the reconnection to tonight and the beginning of my entry, I used the term jutterflies, a term I have not used since I was on YouTube back in senior high school, 2019. Those days were simpler, but were they really? Anyway, after a good, smooth ride home and listening to tunes, I came home and my mother surprised me with kombucha. Ironically, I surprised her with a donut (the free one) but she did not even realize it was in the fridge. We have been doing just because treats for weeks, probably months now. Feels good. Expect the unexpected. I recall saying something of that nature in an entry before.

I am leaning towards returning to social media in the end of next week, but I am still thinking about it. Maybe I will, maybe I will not. My co-workers said they miss me on it, so ATBJ will be making a comeback some time soon. Hopefully this comeback can begin, and I can upload this entry before it is 00:00 of 27 October.

For those who has not been on the site since I had updated or uploaded an entry, you will probably notice the new tab in the menu. The “Weekly Art & Pieces”. I realized that I had not been making --more like uploading because I definitely have been making it-- my art that I would normally put on my art Instagram page, so I will be adding them here. I hope you guys enjoy. ♡

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Affirmations:

Iye am appreciative of the life that Iye am currently living, and Iye know it is only going to get better from here.

Iye understand myself and allow myself to learn and unlearn from a day-to-day basis.

Iye give myself the power and energy to complete my desired tasks.

Iye love and owe it to myself to be extraordinary.

Iye deflect and mirror any manifestations and/or orders made over me, intentional and unintentional, that are not in favour of my life, growth, career, or progression.

Iye am a reflection of my People, Ancestors, Guides, HP, and myself.

Iye do not chase, Iye attract. What belongs to me will simply find me.

Being appreciative comes more than easy to me.

My learning is my number one priority.

Iye make myself stronger by attracting any and every thing Iye desire.

Getting my health on track is very important to me.

Iye excel in everything Iye do and in every aspect of my life.

There are no words that can truly describe who Iye am or what Iye am capable of.

Spoken 23:42 >>

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Personal Note from Jared:

“Even though it may not be apparent in the moment, there is always a lesson to be learned.”

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Chosen Lyric:

“I'll be your reason”

'If You Let Me' Alina Baraz

* I will be my reason - Jared *

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Thank you for reading this and reading the others, it means alot to me.

Blog entry signed & completed @ 23:36 (23:44, the 26th) ♡ ☥ ☼

𝙄𝙩’𝙨 𝙀𝙖𝙨𝙮 𝙏𝙤 𝙁𝙖𝙞𝙡 & 𝙃𝙖𝙧𝙙 𝙏𝙤 𝙎𝙪𝙘𝙘𝙚𝙚𝙙. Written, Spoken, Simple Yet 𝘿𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙚. — 𝙅𝘼𝙍𝙀𝘿 ☉